dusty...

(Dust by *calmyafarm)

gosh..

its been...wut???2months..

i miss my blog..

sory me bloggie 4 leaving u alone..huhu

i'll start writing soon i promise..

MaJoR CoNsTRuCtiON...

yup..

major construction is taking place for my blogs..

well..

i thought..

new sem is about to start..

so, sure i will have no times sgt for this blog..

so why not change now..

and thanx to zhafir for helping me out on choosing d skin..

i couldnt ask for more..

luv u hubby!

thousands miles away

i'm so so so sad...i'm here in malaysia..only 2 of us..me n angah..and d rest of my family in london..how can i get back on my feet??

(juz me and my baby at klia, waiting for zhafir to fetch me)

(one last family photo)

North West London, 9.38pm, 10 January 2009

i cant believe diz!!!i'm finally going back..i dun want 2!y?i've made a list 2 it..it juz so sad..i'm gonna miss every1 and everythings in london..i'm gonna deadly miss my family!!!!i'm gonna miss diz home!!!i'm gonna miss london(but not as much as i'm gonna miss my family)..they r everythings 2 me!!!they all make me laugh all d times!!!not any second of d times spent with em i ever regret!!!i'm gonna miss watching family movie nite, watching deal or no deal, watching abah dancing for my girl...i really gonna miss everthgs!!!oh god..i juz dont wanna b away from em for a long time..eventho i'm21 but i alwiz will be abah lil gal!!!i love u my family!!!and i'm sorry for everythings!such as not helping mum, getting in2 a fight with dra n wa, for not clean up d house..i'm sorry..and thanx for giving me a great time of my life!!!i appreciate it and i love all of u!!!taake care every1!take care..wa jgn men komp lame sgt yea..dra tlg ibu yea, tmn ibu, ibu jgn kerja kuat sgt k, rest a bit, and abah 2..jgn keja kuat sgt yea..i luv u all!wish dat we could be 2gether soon!real soon!i love u guys more than trillion times!!!!i love u guys my family!!!

(our nitely routine, watching movie all together)

quizzeszszsz

i found diz from qha pgae on friendster..its look interesting 2 me...so i was thinking giving it a try..now..i'm stuk with it..for thos of u whi want 2 try quizzes like diz n many more..juz go 2 doz webbie..here are some results of d quiz..i'm so in luv..

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Your Love Score Is: 80

It's truly love. You have an amazing partner and a wonderful relationship. Your relationship isn't perfect, but you know how to work with each other to make it better. You both listen to one another, give freely, and do your best to make things work. While you have ups and downs like any other couple, you're good at getting through the bad times together. And although you find it easy to love your partner, you understand that lasting love doesn't come easily. You are both willing to give this relationship everything you have. And luckily, that's all it takes to make it work.

Are You in Love?

What You Know About Your Guy: Practically Everything

You have gotten to know your man really well From his hopes and dreams to favorite things... You definitely have enough info to figure out if he's *the* guy In fact, you may know him a little better than you know yourself

How Well Do You Know Your Man?

He's a Great Boyfriend

You guy definitely loves you and knows how to treat you right. You have a five star boyfriend - so make sure you treat him right too!

Is He a Good Boyfriend?

He's A Keeper!

Your guy is a rare find: sweet, kind, and loyal. And as long as he doesn't have three nipples, You should seriously consider keeping him a long time Sometimes a girl can't see a good thing when she's got one So let me tell you: your guy is a gold medal boyfriend Just make sure you treat him right in return!

Is He a Keeper?

Your Relationship Will Last... A Long Time!

Your guy is ideal, as close to Mr. Perfect as he could be If you took this quiz, you may be doubting that... Don't! No guy is perfect but yours comes really close You guys will last for many years, as long as you appreciate him!

How Long Will Your Relationship With Your Guy Last?

Your Relationship is Strong

You've built the foundation of a great relationship, and it would take a lot to shake it. Through good communication and respect, you have a true love that can last a lifetime.

How Strong Is Your Relationship With Your Guy?

empty

why??i dunno why..suddenly i feel dat i'm gonna be so empty for d next 6months or even 1 year..

he will difintely b very bz..he said he wont..but, diz last 3days kinda proof dat he will..diz is kinda suck..

i think diz is d main reason why suddenly i start spending so much..for diz month only..i nearly spent a thousand, and i didnt even made dat much..debt..i'm so worried..lonely..so damn worried..study..hell yeah worried..if its wheel of life,i know where i am right now..i'm totally at d bottom..and like my dad said..when u r at d bottom, dont blame any1 else except u,urself..

last week in london

(dont let me go shrek..i dun wanna go back! -madame tussauds-)

owh gosh..i really cant believe it..my 2 months vacation in london almost done..

i do feel like going back..but its only because i cant wait 2 see my king..others reason than that..i hate going back..there's so many reason..let me list a few of it..

1. all my family members will stay in london...except me n angah..so,can u imagine..going home which actually empty..

2. UM!!!!argh!!!i hate tutors and test..i dunno y i cant improve my grade..its really suck!

3. eventho i'm 21 years old already..but i'm still and forever will be daddy little gal..i alwiz ask abah and ibu 2 do things for me especially with d assgmnt or intview..so,now they r all in london..

4. i'm afraid 2 admit it,but i think i'll b alone..what about my king?well,he will definitely b bz for diz new sem with all d feseni..and he will have no time for me..friends?honestly..i'm not really good in friendship..and sumtimes i do think dat i'm really mean person..i regret everythings dat i did to em..i'm sorry..

5. i'm totally not in a mood of studying..juz want to see my king..but he will b bz..so its still suck..

but, i need to see my king...NEED!its a need!cant wait 2 c him..he's gonna pick me up at d airport..i luv u darl!

in between..

the title might sound like 'curang'..but actually its not..i'm just in between staying more in london and going back 2 mas asap,cuz i miss my king damn much..

as u can c..its d pic of me n my fam,which we were at d loch lomond..d place where loch monster live..huhu..diz was d most itrstg part of d trip..love it damn much!

well..lots of things happnd,good and bad,i hate d bad..as ussual my poison startd it..but glad now evrthgs back 2 wonderland!

now 4 new sem..juz hoping for d better!really hoping!!!

Sa-rang-eun Him-deun-ga Bwa

love is difficult???

sumtimes it is..but all d times its juz so so fun..espclly when i got sum1 like my king...

he is my king..my happiness..my love..my cure..and also my poison..diz is wut i really mean by he's my everythings...

however..my love for him will not change even a lil bit..i juz cant stop loving him,even hows hurt luv can make u feel..

and my sis.if u read diz..i dont want to act immature..i'm sorry if dat wut u want me to say..

not sucha a good day

yup!today really not dat sucha a good day..

d result for my final juz came out diz mornig..owh,i feel like crying..but first n foremost of course i' so thankful dat i manage to mntain my pointer..it juz dat,i was expecting more..espclly on the audit paper..dat really blew me off!i'm really dprssd!

i'm not dat mad cuz i know that HE knows whats best for me..mungkin bukan rezeki kite..i'm really wishing,praying and hoping dat diz coming sem will be better..lets pray together..

but actually d most things dat i feel sad about is..my king..kesian die..he did stdy very hard..but he didnt manage to pass one paper..he tried really hard..i know dat cuz i was watching him in d exam hall..dats wut i alwiz do in exam hall or even class..i love to look at him..he always make me feel so much better juz looking at him..luv u darl!

i guess dats all for now..

i have to get going..

going to staples bisness thingy..sumtg 2do with my new tv...

n once again..thanx for reading!

welcome to YOU!!!

hmmm..how i should i start diz..well,hello there..thanx for taking ur time to view diz blog (eventhough u r planning to close diz window,well..view could be enough)..

by d way..i shud introduce myself..shud i?u may already know me..so..i'm 21 years old girl/woman (seriously i dunno which one,cuz sumtimes i do act like a girl,n sumtimes like a woman,it might be both)..i'm still studying in the field of accountancy (i was so passionate about it back then,but now..its kinda bored)..i'm the eldest daughter (but sumtimes i was not that matured enough)..and the most important things is that..i do luv my life!my family!n especially my king dat have my heart!!!luv u darl!

so..lets move on to why i wanna start a blog??well actually,diz is not my first blog..i had wrote a blog b4..but then i get a lil bz falling in luv..so i kinda forget about it..and now..i would love to start a blog n kinda hoping dat diz time it will stick around..

d name my sweetest death kinda creepy..but its actually have a deeply meaning about love..i choosed diz name because its a tittle for d 1st poem i gave to my king..and then he made song from it..so,its kinda name that we shared together n belong to us..his song,my poem..

i have lots to write but i think i'm gonna go 2 bed now..since its almost 4am in london..so,off 2 bed now..and those that made till diz line...congrat!n thanx a bunch!

(picture of me n my king celbrating his 21st bday..luv u darl!)